Every Other Entertainment

  I used to watch youtube video constantly...like it had to be like my freshman year of high school and I couldn't stay at my neighbors Easter or Holiday party super long and just snook home and watched youtube videos starting out with like One Direction fan videos and found those british youtubers though the search main page and now I don't really watch as much... Like I created a youtube account because I was interested in doing those vlog things but didn't really know how to do it...Like with that I basically just used the account for videos to save to watch later or to subscribe to. Like I loved the shaytards with their family vlogs and like Philip Defranco with his stuff but now it's basically just barstool rundowns and their vlog, stool scenes oh also and I watch like music videos and stuff. Oh and random viral videos from like talk shows from like Conan, Jimmy Fallon and Jimmy Kimmel. All the new youtube stuff thats out I barely know any of the popular creators a...

  I remember back in high school there was this term in AP Psychology how like there's feeling where you can get where you are in a social settle and you do the bare minimum like not talking as much or not putting enough effort in for a sports game, etc... Like I think that's me. Like the term is me, Like sometimes I feel I do the bare minimum going out and all that stuff. I'll do that with my persona time just like things like my job, I just want to do anything that will make the day go buy faster. At work I'll do the work super fast so I can have the rest of the day as down time but half the time it bites me in the ass. Other coworkers then will just give me their duties of the day since I look like I'm not doing enough when in reality I do just as much as them just I don't space it out throughout the whole day I just work faster and I feel like I should deserve a break after all that.... Right now in my downtime I listen to podcasts and these are the ones I l...

I've been debating with myself with this the past quarantine, so like the past few months of so. I 1000% know that I don't have any room for more plants but I need to get another like string of pearl, or a succulent, or like Monstera or like a bamboo palm plant.  Plants cost too much and I don't want to buy a cool plant and kill it the next day....Thats why I only have two snake plants succulents and two plants from my dad  I still don't know what they are but they haven't gone dry yet...

Think about it, instead of paying like a hundred dollars a tree to cut them down and instead of like making sure those weird branches on the tree don't get in the way, like this is kinda perfect. Besides the fact that like the trees or whatever could fall on the house and stuff, eh not too shabby. Anyways this is just like a small storm that barely hit here that bad, basically no flooding or tornado type stuff, just like strong windows and we lost power all of like 2 minutes max. The biggest hassle is basically waiting for the cable box to connect for TV and waiting for the WiFi to hook back up to like the laptop and phone and stuff. On the plus side I am home from work. I love my coworkers some days and other days I just want to finish the day and just drive home as fast as possible. Is this basically how things are going to go growing up? Faking being happy all the time at work and trying to work my way up the corporate ladder working a job I still don't know if I even like. ...

I'm going to try and put together a list of states I want to visit next year, I want to go visit 5 new states! I want to go to California, Washington, Arizona, Louisiana and Colorado but I think ideally, I probably should just visit like 2 or three but like look at Washington! I want to go hiking and see Lake Serene and hike Mount Index. like maybe I'm underselling but where I am just everything seems kind of average not super scenic but not out in the middle of no where. The only thing that is perfect is the fall.  Like my life isn't that bad but like to escape to a place like this would not be too shabby. Like other places I have seen are like Blanca Lake ad Eagle Falls, they literally look perfect, I also want to see what their beaches look like... But like also California with their national parks like Yosemite, the Sequoias, and Lake Tahoe...Besides all the hollywood type stuff that everyone will inevitably go to I just want to see clear water. 

I basically have been going back and forth between trying to stay fit and work out like doing yoga, going hiking, going running every morning, or those Instagram work outs every influencer was doing. But now I am back to eating like crap but going back to work and not just sitting around my yard every day.  This is just a late at night post but I need to stay off of social media more. During this whole pandemic, I would try to trick myself into thinking it is the way to stay connected with people I wasn't seeing as often so I was on constantly. And it was incredibly easy, having more time and workin g from home and all that.  On the plus side for companies, every created shopping addictions and watched endless amount of TV and all that stuff. No wonder the billionaires got richer. I did try and help the small businesses, probably too much by ordering out like every other day and stuff.  Honestly probably the only reason why I started (sort of) workin...

Lately I have been watching shows such as Gossip Girl, The Carrie Diaries, and 90210. Life in the big cities are where it is at. Normally a day in the city means a vacation where there is a limited amount of time to spend before I miss the last train back up to Connecticut. Shows such have these presented a lifestyle exclusively for the elite.  On the TV shows it presents the city in a light where everyday is a party and the newest trends are necessary. I haven't even been to the west coast so I am just basing it off of what I watch on netflix. There is an underlying message that to survive means that you have to be on top.  I want to explore that. Not to prove to myself that I can manage but because of the idea that it is the ultimate challenge. I think in 2 years time I will move there myself and travel not to explore the city but to explore who I want to be.